15:54
in the past, for a time, i would walk into a store and i felt fear the stress of being harrassed, accused of stealing. i broke free from that mindset, and you are not dragging me back into it. !
Tag: sf
13:23
that was the last time i go to thrift at this location. went in searching for pants, did not find anything i wanted and left. had i not turned around and noticed you, would you have grabbed my bag? do not ever follow me.
01:07
the last person to try all of this failed miserably, you will too.
22:31
how delusional can one be?
14:33
here at the clinic, i wonder if the questions asked were filled in correctly with my answers ? it doesn’t really matter anyway… i’m just here for some topical antibiotic ointment sorting my oral antibiotic. x300! ✅️
06:44
this morning, i decided to sort my space 30 minutes before. oh i had to say it again… turn to the side!
09:02
in the event one bumps into me, it will be me expecting your apology, not the other way around, ~ (earlier)
07:25
get that shit out of my face, and cover your mouth please. !
03:40
generally speaking, i will not accept the standard of living to continue in decline. at some point, i will indeed do something about it… ! (wonders)
03:18
i literally wake up almost gasping for air, i rush to slip my sandals on and head outside the dorm on the balcony for relief. this is unacceptable and they don’t care! they will not do anything about it! they only go further! (what’s going to be done about it and when?)
00:54
am i ignorant to the amount of stupid that exists? have i forgotten or, ? what’s going on here? (i am definitely ignorant in some ways)
18:57
did they really just give another “client” across from me a can of lysol, to spray on me? yes, they did. (what’s with the continued bold moves?)
07:34
well anyway on a positive note i just got done eating a (small) delicious chocolate espresso square that i bought yesterday… mmm.
07:09
each morning it feels like i just got done smoking a ton, and i have no problem walking around outside during the day, besides my back of course. (by the way, did i just hear another foul cry?)
00:54
standing outside the room, on the balcony. catching my breath, holding myself up… (exhausted, tired)
18:11
do you really think i care what y’all say? i stopped caring, i’m all smiles! (inside & out)
01:06
well anyway i took the chance and told a staff passing by about a rug that someone has placed on the floor beside their bed, mentioning how dangerous it is…
23:49
i am about ready to tear these curtains off the railing! (but not really because,)
13:14
thank you for making it manageable, so to speak. i appreciate the help (and rest!), when i needed it most.
15:21
i’m learning a bit more each day i am here actually, ~ ! (not as it seems)
07:34
if you expected me to be the caregiver in this position well,
20:19
who put some🌸 on my bed? (after the fire drill) just a few small pieces, not enough to smoke… am too tired and sore to go through everything and check underneath…
18:56
do i have to turn on a security camera (phone) by my space tonight? alfred isn’t the same now, would have to pay some money i don’t really have. and share it with whom?
19:35
simply, don’t listen to them.
11:25
and they aren’t even going to escort him out for the day, (he had a knife at me, demanding i open my bag, to get out of here)
16:15
two four other people from the shelter sitting and laying around the polish club because…
15:42
a fun day at franklin square,
10:41
the other day somebody around mentioned syphillis and it has me viewing some example photos again this morning…
10:21
do i need to be reminded of labels also?
09:54
bread & coffee day at martine’s
09:17
i might be bitter to say some things…
08:55
was so tuned out to the things being said to me from the maybe superviser at the gus’s market, i turned my head a few minutes after, observing the different kombucha varieties… (i have a reason to, i notice a difference) but i looked right through him and carried on, i guess now i have to walk further in a day again…
08:54
whose idea is it to decorate the sidewalks? (i mean, besides yesterday)
08:23
bought an avacado and ended up throwing it away,
08:10
what should i buy from the store this morning? been switching the routine lately but i really don’t know anymore…
20:57
if i watched all these tv shows i bet i’d have even more anxiety…
20:19
so we all have to put up with this, is that right? i said aloud,
19:40
not picking up on any of your cues here…
19:16
is it a stretch to say… i moved out here sooner than i did?… (conspire)
19:04
serious question: who are they talking about, doing such awful things? i have been open about my past, am i in the wrong place to simply say some sound worse? i know i am good, putting my earbuds in.
18:18
i will be comfortable whether you like it or not!
18:16
well, there goes the shower for tonight…
17:53
i don’t know anything about stigmas, i am being reminded of them. i am the one that walks all over them, everyday around town… (with a good attitude)
17:13
an unusual usual stroll in the evening…
16:46
if you think treating me like this is going to change my mind you are mistaken.
12:59
they took this from me (for awhile) . apparently this is showing off or something.
11:15
you call yourselves adults? and you are proud of it, that behavior?
09:19
i have some chips to greet me upon my return, ~
09:08
i don’t care about your narrative, not giving it the time of day now. (i notice, but no)
08:50
who do i think i am? someone who is above and beyond all of this.
21:55
i held the curtain open not even half a minute and this little bitch demon gets out of bed to violently close the curtain, ripping it out of my hand. i back up and walk away. staff comes up to me a moment later asking if everything is okay, he saw “us getting into it” i said, why are you asking me? no, ! .
20:26
even made a quick and subtle “no” gesture pointing up next to my hair in front of the office door camera, while i made my way back into the bathroom for 10 seconds rubbing my beard in the mirror… then back into the room to this irritating scent, in more ways than one.
19:20
evil, if you view me this way, i don’t care to change it.
14:31
i will never respect the order. i don’t have respect, never have.
13:15
another weekend of cheap 🌸 that is not even half as good as before.
13:12
a damaged nerve, an infection, or both?
07:15
y’all are done… ! (i said it quietly, while sipping my coffeeish)
06:21
opened curtain again, (not even half, just a bit)
06:24
and it is closed again, !
06:31
opened it again ‼️
06:08
rise and shine i check the headlines and am reminded once again that the rest of the world is no different!
05:59
what a bunch of babies in here. staff, and clients alike. !
05:55
they are so quick to suffocate the room again! (one minute!)
00:15
oooouuuuucccchhhhhhh ! drinking lots of water and running cold water on my thumb,
15:00
doing it better? (what’s that for you?)
14:30
the tower, a jammer, idk. it reminded me i used to use my phone less… (as if i needed reminding, i still do it often)
13:34
they think it is cute, but i am not even going to pay attention. like that is how much you mean to me. (and i say it nicely)
13:11
my “real estate” would be mostly garden… (i don’t need anything too big,)
13:06
peace and good vibes all around, am ignoring everything else. (what’s that for you?)
13:00
i don’t like conflicts, always like to avoid them.
12:49
who’s shouting about the new world order? i heard it from below,
04:01
thumb is hurting so bad,
01:10
i stay quiet, make a “no” gesture with my eyes still covered, i eventually fall back asleep.
01:09
i’m wrapped like a f****ng mummy and they
21:23
do i need to make it clear that i remained in bed, covered with a blanket? (had mist of chemicals in my face and eyes, no apology whatsoever, just over 5 seconds of spraying the aisle, two feet away from my face)
04:09
is it still red, or now orange and green?
17:15
i absolutely enjoy how angry some are becoming watching me move with more comfort again. just making my way through, here and there. if you feel like walking into me, that is your problem. You Will Get Over It. !!
11:10
next time i go inside a dispensary for whole flower, i am going to have them show me the crystals in light. (or i am not buying!)
09:57
do not talk to me about fighting for anything. maybe i was dumb but i never thought of it that way before, and after everything i’ve been through. whenever i think about someone coming at me in some kind of way, i simply imagine ending you. and i don’t like it, !
09:51
if i had land that i could control, i would make it beautiful just like this, and not just for myself to enjoy.
08:14
to think that ever worked in the first place. time wasted, it was. !
14:45
did i jump ahead? what does that mean? i came out here naive (and i am still stubborn)
10:42
and they carry on with their nonsense, the nonsense they force me to be familiar with,
10:33
i know what i am doing, and i have to ignore you to carry on,
09:55
i need a pound of cannabis. anyone willing to help out?
08:31
how could i be the destroyer of worlds?
13:17
if minding my own causes this much damage then i will carry on…
17:34
second home, san fran, like it or not (me & you)
16:14
oh let’s see i have worked 4 out of the 10 years i have been out here…
12:48
this gives me all the more reason to enjoy my day, on my own, away from everyone, doing as i please… 🌸
11:26
a smoke in the park sounds better… (which i am now doing anyway)
09:31
🎧! 🇲🇽 ! did i just give myself a reason to avoid el cappo for awhile? and i told myself not to go today,
08:15
do not ever talk to me about what it means to live abundantly… !
17:26
i don’t go any way. i go the way of my house, and hot tub, and kitchen, (and nobody is going to change it!)
11:40
watch me smoke again this weekend, but actually, mind your own.
09:23
42 days since i tried to go in for my appointment but was told i had too much on me and was turned away, (the shelter made me get rid of my luggage the first night i arrived)
07:05
ship these folks back to mexico! (what do i mean?)
02:02
does the time in which this post was made make an imagination run wild?
07:15
and when i move around in the world country i will absolutely bring this attitude with me, as i have already shown… 🖕
13:53
i will take ignoring everyone to the next level… i gave enough consideration.