Tag: sf

15:56

i must be too relaxed today, i am supposed to have reached my limits somewhere, right? hmm…

15:45

was thinking to myself how some others smoke up here often, is it an offense coming from me?

15:34

smoked (had one puff) on the capp patio for the first (and only) time! anyway,

15:03

guess i should have saved the new bottle from yesterday because now i am one less, (actually it isn’t a problem anymore because i have a ceramic jar) but isn’t it polite to ask before taking? he even rinsed his face and drank out of it…

14:10

from my walk to and from martine’s, i am making a point about having to consume more 🌸 (several, actually) & have been thinking of a different time, a time when i had money & worked hard…

12:05

wow. it absolutely is nonsense in the world, ~ just not from me . !

11:20

anyway, off to martine’s, mayonaise in on pasta sounds good today.!

00:59

once again, i open the curtain just a few inches, quietly insisting out loud that it needs to remain so, at least that much… !

10:15

each day i make it very clear i am not about to start taking direction from anyone. it is you, not me… creating issues.

10:12

there are routine things in your daily lives i have not thought of in years… maybe not even at all,

09:42

what are charade s and what is this morning at martine’s for ___________

09:22

i have tuned out of many things and into something better, don’t tell me i don’t have enough status or whatever… because i just might laugh in your face, but probably not…

08:47

oh, is it because you are used to being the bad guys, so it is not a problem for you, having this image?

06:35

i have moved the blanket up and down before with my foot for satisfaction, as an exercise to break free from your hold.

05:54

this is the second time i unhook two hooks holding the curtain on this side to make a point. why does nobody else complain, too used to it perhaps?

01:49

i’ve already lost a toolkit last year in their possession and they leave everything loose + open in mixed bins, many items not even marked with a name or bed number.

00:49

go on and be desperate, i am not there with you, no matter how hard you try.

19:13

what happens to my neck if i start shaking my head no a hundred times a day from now on?

19:07

did she really just pretend to say “hey, i need to talk to you”?

11:00

i was seven months outside again for what reason? in *your* words, not mine –

10:57

what i write here may at best be just another way of coping, to some it doesn’t really matter,

09:14

i will cope in the good ways i know how… what has stayed the same, and what has changed? you tell me, right?

09:08

earplugs are always in through the entire night,,, i stay in my own bubble. ~

08:07

i have been sitting in the old telephone chair at capp for some mornings now, this morning someone placed a stack of individually wrapped condoms in the chair so i looked for a spot to place them… back next to the container they came from at the front desk…

09:28

and the people that have a problem with this shouldn’t be here… maybe, let me reflect on some things…

20:16

who is flaunting what here? check yourself good and well, you surely aren’t the folks in charge… no way.

19:02

what’s wrong with my attitude? too confident for you, too comfortable? don’t expect me to bow for anyone, you will never have that here.

18:54

tonight they made me for the first time check in my smoking pipe, ?

13:37

but i bought cinnamon rolls instead, and today i will buy a different variety to compare the difference.

09:26

and you can be certain i will have another puff the moment i exit this door, here at el capp-o

09:16

a “health worker” says to a client, « you are a gold digger, you don’t stop, ~ »

08:07

i am stuck having to finish eating two more cinnamon buns that seem to contain no cinnamon….

09:02

if i compared myself to some others i find myself as the one letting many issues slide…

08:32

i don’t know where you people come from but you are not going to bother me here, (anywherel)

01:29

the heater on with both doors closed, so incredibly stupid! we are inside of a building and have blankets for a reason,

08:51

to any stranger, i don’t know if we are good or not but i am not even going to think about it anymore…

08:50

i know what is going on, and every day i show which side i am on.

09:07

harassing me for having a smoke is only going to push me to have another… (and nothing will be done about it)

14:06

my next purchase will be wired earbuds, then a new 45 dollar vape cartridge. or maybe the other way around…

00:30

i’m “running” from what again? i won’t listen to it anymore. i show myself daily. : )

07:24

today seems like a good day to smoke next to the police station and sheriff office, so i will.

22:42

is it the job of staff to suffocate the entire room of people, or are they supposed to allow proper air flow? >>>

21:17

first night back in shelter, how long until the complaints start rolling in?

13:36

i continue calling people out for bad manners, it isn’t going to make a difference, if anything it will hurt me,

17:58

father with son encourage younger to barrass, bully, abuse. good job, B r A v O !!!

09:30

some want me to doubt myself today, but i have never been more sure of things.

09:29

must i remind you that i made this journey on my own free will, and not by force?

09:03

arriving at martine’s, i find in what has become my usual spot, a book titled “the art of photoshop”,

13:44

i will not go through my days hearing “that’s how it is” … i do not accept being reduced to this standard of living.

06:52

how shocking it would be if my own family felt the need to go into protection from me. surely they were pressured in some way, if so…

06:57

i was once told to get a life. and what do you have? something i would never want,

00:46

they pick on the past and things that are none of their business instead of being honest about their own present…