Tag: sf

12:44

moved my hands around on my walk. had a nap in the park all morning. put the earplugs in, enjoyed it. haven’t felt this way in some time. nothing you can do about it… if you don’t like it you can go back to where you came from.

01:29

so far i’ve lost two hours of sleep tonight and a cough is coming on. sore throat. am feeling a bit itchy as well, ?

23:45

it dawned on me that maybe the person in front of me, the same one messing with the air purifier (which has now been out of the room for several nights) is spraying this aerosol bottle of whatever and blaming me for it. tonight i spoke up and said something to him the moment he started spraying others’ spaces. it was so bad i had to go out on the balcony for another cup of coffee. then i went to sleep.

23:41

got up to use the toilet. is the heater on a different setting tonight? anyway, i opened the curtain when i returned. need some oxygen flowing in the room, a comfortable temperature,

18:53

do we have some actors around trying to get me in the mood? (here, el cappo,) take that how you will, it can go more than one way…

09:16

less than one month short of five years (1,802 days) i have been on my own, under two months away until four years (1,413 days) since i last met with anyone for anything. i am not the same person today…

09:06

tell me, why is this so difficult now? what do i need to change today? what is it i need to do to move forward? no one can answer because i am right and they are wrong. i am honest and they are not.

08:41

reminding myself that i stopped coming here completely to el cappo from 2017 march/april until 2023 december…

19:03

the one night i won’t complain about the heater being on all night (bags need to dry)

16:43

“no line up til 5:30pm!” everyone else moved away from the camera, and i will stay in the same spot i have just arrived to until the gate opens.

09:02

i’ve brought the air quality issue up enough times by now for there to be no more issues…

21:15

was told i “might” receive a warning for intimidating a staff, i had said aloud i was going to report her behavior.

23:20

woke up suffocating and sure enough some idiot set the purifier to high again, just as i figured while catching my breath before getting up to fill with some water, (i changed it back to auto) my lungs still hurt ten minutes later

03:48

second night i have awoken to find myself in a strange position, with my back twisted and eye cover shirt around my neck. also suffocating a bit, purifier is off auto again… (adjusted, myself, to auto, again, better airflow, again, yay!!!)

21:39

explaining that keeping the fan on high all night makes the room more stuffy, use your noggin . !

04:26

it doesn’t matter what you say, that’s one reason why i don’t care anymore.

09:28

i forgot all about what it is like to… “mingle”… with someone. do not remind me, !

09:20

my needs are: an income, my own place to call home. (not with anyone else!)

09:55

how oppressive do you want things to become? i will tell you where i draw the line…

09:38

thinking to myself how “fancy” i am eating food i would rather make myself,

12:14

i bought two “prerolls” this weekend, up from the usual one 1 ¹ o n e .

07:58

for a day i thought this “superbowl” event had already passed…

09:44

it’s like the beginning again, i don’t hear anyone anymore… : – )

09:10

well is it? is it not showing in the suggestions for a reason? the point of view, …

17:54

millions, millions, millions on homeless services… let’s see a pie chart of where it all goes… (and be honest!)

11:42

on the table it says “make friends” and in the field of grass ahead exists a yellow bench… for a moment i enjoyed the view until a woman arrived to sit down… now i look at my phone and after i will look at a tree…

09:26

if i had a place, i probably wouldn’t even be walking through here, maybe just once (as i am now)…

09:07

i don’t like the times i might be a fool to ignore them, oh well…

08:59

sat here for a moment reading my response and i wondered if someone could use this later in a different way… for example, a guy and his dog companion just made their way down and i got up on my own and moved out of the way to give them more room, .

14:30

bought a different type of licorice today, that makes 3 varieties… fun. !

10:36

i find myself taking photos less and less than before, just like when i first moved, i only captured a few,

10:33

i sat here watching an older man chasing a pigeon. some long-time housed person may typically say “well that’s the environment you are in” but i have observed these behaviors anywhere, ~

10:29

the things some talk about, i sit here wondering how low it sounds. beneath me,

10:14

just because i am moving around it doesn’t mean i am about to begin caring what continues to come out of the mouths of some

10:08

i wonder what the coffee is like this morning, ? i said to myself. i need no coffee, i need an onion, for later

10:05

i’m almost certain i hear more noise but i stop myself from paying enough attention…

09:46

now he walks up to the serving table while informing me that the food is out, so kind

09:43

here is someone that talks non stop, looking for a problem… (it isn’t me, i sit here quietly)

13:00

too close, i said. – “what!?” says one,,,”want a back rub?” says the other. – … go look in the mirror, i said several times

08:42

i’ve seen enough changes by now, from where i stand, to know what is going on.

06:56

these tactics have failed and i will continue to brush them off. i will defy anything i disagree with and keep my peace!

06:53

you do not dictate my life. i go by my own rules. and i can, because i know how to mind my own. that gives me the free pass!

06:47

you are not going to send me through a day in court. not another day in jail, either. i am never going to prison. stay the fuck away from me!

16:37

seems the police (or a particular batch of them) thought it might be funny to have an actor collapse in front of me at the corner of an intersection while i finish crossing the street but i backed up instantly and made my way through in the street instead, not even going to look at you passing by in your CrUiSeR, i did good at ignoring, also, parking in front of the shelter with lights flashing (several times) and driving around 🖕

15:18

i for one enjoyed my sunday stroll in un-usual places, and i am just minding my own… just made my way back to the shelter of sorts and i will ignore these set ups as usual… thanks much !

15:10

what do you think picking on me is going to do? what good comes out of it? not used to this method when it comes to others…

14:45

happened to walk by the clock shop, stood there for a moment observing and thought to myself if someone lives there…

<<<🖼<<

12:35

ten waymo’s just passed, i have no income, i will have as many puffs as i want to.

10:57

keep yapping ! i’d rather listen to this than all of you. yeah, much better … (in a loop for the next ten thirty minutes)

<<<🖼<<

17:17

please don’t give me problems where there aren’t any. i don’t have the money to be buying a new preroll everyday … nor do i want to. (it has become a weekend only thing, at this point!)

17:49

am out front here at the shelter thinking to myself in this moment while i wait to go inside, if it was a certain someone who walked through here, stopping for a moment, talking to a stranger that used to stay here, putting your hand out at me from a distance and shaking your head, as if you were going through some emotions… it couldn’t be, you can’t expect me to be certain nor expect me to walk up to you and say hi (like a fool) (i have been messed with too often)

09:10

taking advantage of this situation is wrong and i will not accept being told i cannot do anything about it. believe me, i will!

08:50

for a period of time, i was paranoid and extra careful about my every move.

03:24

do you know how good it feels to breathe? i opened both curtains. the rush of oxygen into the room, my body saying thank you… (update: @ 3:31, staff arrives, closed the curtains again)

15:16

these people make money off of my suffering, and this is how they behave , ?

10:07

what is the meaning of life when you reach this place i am now, i cannot answer that for you.

10:03

wondering if my words can be MiScOnTrUEd, some could say i am the one projecting today…

04:05

this morning a staff closed the curtain the moment i walked back inside, i stood there, took a picture of myself holding it open for a moment ~

08:12

yep, i smoked again and yep, y’all gone get over it ~ ! (no issues) ☕️ ~ ~ ~

07:21

i am not a bad guy and i am not going to put up with anyone treating me as such. i don’t need your company to survive or feel good (anymore) ~ ! (enjoying my own company, been this way for years now)

01:55

second time within a few nights i have awoken to find my eye covers (old shirt) off my face and around my neck, facing right (when i usually face left toward the wall) : |

22:38

the reason for handing someone a form in front of me at this hour in the dark is what?

21:24

plus having to hear several arguments and someone being escorted out

20:32

mMmMm, tea, coffee, chocolate & licorice before bed ~ (equals stomach ache)