Tag: sf

19:48

no family or friend of mine would lie to me, either. (facts!)

19:08

no family or friend of mine would set me up or cry foul anywhere, not in person, not around town, not on anything i write in my journal.

11:42

no one is going to talk to me about accountability. 🖕 (i am free!)

11:10

yes, there is an excuse for what i did, and i have since moved on from it now. if you can’t, that is your problem at this point.

08:11

how does it feel to conform? i wouldn’t know, (i can guess)

08:08

not going to live my life like that, stressing all the time. i have a head full of grey today to show for it. i’m done! go on, conspire! have a field day! (you won’t win!)

07:50

i see right through everything without having to go through all of the bullshit now, sometimes i have to stop and remind myself that this is so,

07:43

i am not with anyone else. i am on my own side, away from everyone else. (well)

09:50

i’m not doing anything? i’ve already done everything i need to, more than enough…

06:15

it is such a great feeling being sprayed in the face with perfume the moment i wake up!

20:19

no, i won’t get used to it, i will get out of it!

10:38

chocolate bar – tea – kombucha – coconut oil – bag of taffy – tuna – tuna – oysters – sardines – cheese – yogurt – hot sauce – herbs – spices – tea – yogurt – chocolate bar – kombucha – potato salad – tuna – tuna – crackers – loaf of bread – peanut butter = 112

07:47

well, they’ve lost my can/bottle opener. i will not be checking anything in, anymore. no matter what! (second item lost)

<<<🖼<<

10:22

i can keep doing this, and i will! (in the right)

07:29

yeah, and all you do is shit, talk shit, lame shit!

07:24

but we can say he is, but we can say he is, but we can say he is, 🤡

07:11

well i guess you aren’t ~qualified~, just “RoWdY”! that’s all it takes sometimes…

07:05

keep whining , ! i have nothing to apologize for today. it’s time to sort your own issues ~ (yes, even you!)

11:38

water and sun, water and sun, that’s all you need is some water and sun! ~~~

07:25

do i have an apple charger? not for you. i stopped sharing with everyone!

07:47

i don’t even have to process your noise anymore, i am that good at ignoring it. ! (mostly)

20:43

keeping my hands to myself is one of the things i do best! (community meeting)

16:45

no, thanks. ! what i want is a key lime pie. and a rum cake. (not interested)

01:38

keep trying, desperate bitch! or should i say, bitches!?!

01:23

you are messing with the wrong person. are you aware of that? (no, no, no!)

12:39

someone playing the piano was not only interrupted, but threatened if they did not stop. i lost my apetite for lunch today.

10:15

not even family is allowed to manage my finances. there’s never been an issue. well the issue is living a life outside and you have to factor the boredom, the bills, the hunger from moving around all the time. the stress… i don’t need to explain. it all adds up! (before)

18:35

and this evening i soaked my thumb at the shelter, outside on the balcony. am i going to delay another soak out of fear they may complain about it, twist around? nope! not giving you that control over me, (second time here)

11:34

i skipped wednesday and thursday, soaking my thumb. today i will while doing laundry.

09:48

no, i don’t know how to read anyone today. i only know how to stand up for myself and stay away.

09:02

there’s no excuse for what i did? such an old line,

05:37

and be honest about how much of a let down y’all are! (i can’t depend on your word.)

01:06

now they switched and this staff has the curtain partially open, like i had it before… ? (the difference can be felt right away)

01:02

this shit of a staff just used their phone to call for All staff to immediately approach as if there was an issue, just because i decided to hold the curtain open for a moment without them closing it right away. i said… there is no issue! , and they walked away…

23:27

i am using my chapstick a whole bunch tonight, what’s going to be done about that, hmm? (can’t sleep, maybe later)

21:55

if y’all are trying to hurt my feelings, you are failing! (stronger than ever, had to adapt)

17:46

the shelter staff, even the police. something seems off. i better not find a random phone around me later tonight!

17:42

i’m not swayed in the slightest. i healed, i pushed myself through the traumas. get fucking real, i am! i don’t bother anyone!!!

17:37

i’ve had someone pull a knife out on me before and after i ever did, was this another setup? i felt ignored the whole time as i explained the situation that just happened. trespassing?

17:28

i arrive in line, the same as every evening. a guy on a scooter passes by. in the opposite direction, a guy and gal approach him, stopping him, “do you have a phone?” then a huge knife comes out… am i going to stay around? no! i start walking into the street to cross the other side and he turns his attention to me. he starts chasing me for a moment, i make my way into the shelter through the parking lot via an open door next to the church. some other maintenance guy is working out front. i took the chance!

08:58

english comes before spanish. this is north america. not central america, not south america. north america.

07:50

this city has screwed me over since the beginning. when i first started working, the day i received my very first paycheck. (muni & safeway)

07:28

this old creep is walking around shaving his face, leaving a trail of small hairs all over the fucking place! (he smirks about it)

02:45

if i had a gun, i’d have engraved a “no” on the left side. (and that’s not all)

17:23

do not ever expect me to let you hold me against my will, because you will be putting yourself in danger, ! (anyone)

11:49

i’m not going to attack anyone unless i really need to. the other day it came close, but i was patient enough. if anyone ever thinks of trying this again, i will do what i need to. (without any added stress)

10:57

🌞🌴🧺you don’t get to come here in this second home of mine and change the rules, that’s my job! because i am one of the most reasonable people around ~ (from other places)

19:06

you might want to be careful before you cry foul again. (in all directions tonight)

05:58

just an fyi to everyone in town: i never asked for your approval to be here, and quite frankly i don’t need it. i say this especially to all of the new faces that think they can come at me with the lines of “you really need to get out of here” “we don’t want you” , suck it up buttercup!!! i’m here until i receive my money. !

05:52

lift up your blanket please. lift up your blanket please! alright, well if it keeps happening i am going to knock until you do. i will pound if i have to.

16:14

when ~nonchalant~ becomes a problem, in what state are we in? (and i mean it widely, we are all people at the end of the day) when does ~nonchalant~ become a problem?

14:44

when i go back again later this week, no more issues? i don’t want any…

14:28

he told me after checkout… someone else cried foul. it’s possible… i had to rethink things for an hour. upset at myself for moving my mouth more than needed, and the hand gesture too. i don’t know him, his side, or what he’s been through. however, i’m pretty sure he’s been there before, and if i use the restroom it is always before i grab a cart. usual routine, but not often i use there. not going to feel uncomfortable anymore, as you can see!

10:26

when someone comes back at me with the fact this is a soup kitchen, i just want to strangle you!

07:13

i am allowed to talk to myself. i will talk to myself as much as i feel like it! (not bothered)

08:34

tell me what you know about an arrest warrant? but you won’t, (and i don’t care, nothing will be done about it Anyway)

07:30

waiting for me turn at the serving table. am wondering what a white flashing light means on the cctv camera? it’s usually a steady blue, (it went back to blue after a moment)

06:50

keep trying, continue failing, and laugh all you want. i will have the last laugh, you can be sure of that!

05:11

is it a coincidence that this morning i have a staff stand outside by the door giving me looks and they deliberately turn and start walking into me the moment i make my way inside? (they were less than a foot away from me and i had to swerve to avoid hitting them)

<<<🖼<<

09:42

make use of the shower option folks. after you have one, you ask yourself why you took so long,

09:31

sorry, is it because you feel threatened i choose to take care of myself in alternative ways? but i can’t do my own blood work, or check ups, or transport myself to the hospital in an emergency, can i? i don’t know everything, and there are things you may suggest that i am open to hear… hmm,

05:02

i will not take it the way they want me to, it goes right back to them.

04:24

it is a great feeling, i no longer feel the need to explain myself.

07:08

no, it is no different. you are either real, or you are not. (yes, some people have no choice, …)

07:35

that’s not going to woorrrrkkk. but keep trying! try away ! ~ ~ ~ : – )

13:08

the life of meeting people, it’s one i have forgotten. far away, foreign, forever. (i’m satisfied)

18:54

i will never accept anything from any stranger, don’t even try…

13:47

these bitches are receiving money, before me… (so rude and undeserving)

06:28

all i can do is laugh at y’all today, that’s all you’re getting out of me! (anywhere)

12:30

i decided to skip lunch at martine’s today, ate tuna on bread in the park instead. but you will see me again in the morning, ~ 🌸

10:24

there used to be a better breed of people here, (or?) but these are the one’s that will do it in… (a shame)

10:14

am shocked this morning at martine’s to find a volunteer serving food not only eating over the tray, but also holding a napkin under their chin to catch something coming out (from after a shave, perhaps?) i have it on video, 01 & 02 •

10:11

i left the baking soda on the bed, in the corner. they could make a mess with it and say it was me but i don’t care… (my sandals are fresh once again)

05:00

baking soda? just a tiny little bit from what came off my sandal straps as i walked throughout the night, yes, and the “cleaner/maintenance” is going to come in later and sweep clean like he should.

11:45

how neat ! , a random lady passing out sheets of orange paper. will bind into a notebook… 📙

23:43

i sweat more throughout the night than i do at any point during the day.

09:25

everything would fall apart if you all had your way. you don’t know how to keep it together. (i leave little room if any, for your kind)

00:54

you may think you are something but you are nothing here. think twice next time…

00:40

oh and the movements when i’m awake, i make my “no” gestures a bit more frequently now , ! i will remain comfortable.

07:23

🤔 … i’ve only ever written one 1 ¹ o n e complaint form, and it wasn’t here…

07:34

actually, today is laundry day. for the first time in a month or so.

06:13

they’re picking on movements in my sleep. (again) oh well… 🖕

20:30

if i need a referral to go somewhere for a housing assessment, why can’t you hand it to me now instead of asking me to arrive tomorrow at three? (and the gate opens at six, so weird)

20:26

was told am due long overdue for a housing assessment, so i will squeeze that into my empty schedule tomorrow.

16:01

they haven’t had dressing rooms in six years. (they also don’t check in bags behind the counter like they used to,)