Tag: sf

09:57

i am not listening to your voices today, they will be ignored, silenced. i will not give them any more attention.

08:41

i’ve spent so much time away from the norms and what’s accepted and tolerated, i’ve almost forgotten and have to stop and think for a moment is it really this way? get the fuck out of here with your dirty needs!

08:23

i’ve always been this way? actually for a time i considered another’s point of view, i gave my time, thought, effort. what was that?

08:04

what am i worth? maybe nothing to you, but why should that matter to me?

07:23

i will always be alone? i’ve adapted to live alone, i wouldn’t have it any other way. you couldn’t force it with anything.

21:00

to no one in particular

i hurt your ego and i am not sorry

i proved you wrong and i am not sorry

i continue to follow my own way and i am not sorry

i’m good, i’m right, and i am not sorry

i will never be sorry

19:07

it’s just underwear i said to myself, until i thought about the money, and time, and harrassment at times… should have just left. i stayed and acted a bit like a fool. (feeling bad)

17:35

well, so i found my underwear. forgot to take it out of my blue bag. but i had a reason to suspect they stole it because things have gone missing before. (never found those) one time recently i left a pair in the shower at the shelter, but was like whatever… that doesn’t explain for the rest though. (here and there) i’m down to only two…

17:25

well, no more laundry for a few weeks at least. (when i receive some money again) deal with it!

17:17

isn’t it something, i’ve seen people do lots of things here and they only get a week/one day suspension. but here i am letting off steam kicking the toilet flush a few times, putting my hand up in a staff face, and upon exiting exclaiming that i am tired of them stealing my clothes, proceeding to slam the door open as i walked out. (and slamming shut after) as i was walking away, another staff comes out and says to me i am suspended forever. i suppose it’s for the best.

16:40

i said aloud, i’ll destroy this place. i can. (if i wanted to)

16:36

as i finished folding my clothes, and started putting them away, i noticed something was missing. went through all of the trash bins, looked inside of the storage room by the shower/laundry… could not find my grey underwear. now i am down to only one pair, the red.

15:03

i wasn’t supposed to figure this all out, so i’ve heard.

12:58

i could remove these jewels i have placed on my phone, but i like the way they look (and the camera(s) is poor quality anyway)

10:39

you can’t control me no matter which approach you take, and everyone is going to learn it, if they haven’t already.

10:23

the company of another is not worth my freedom. (no love)

09:43

call it what you wish. rejected, cancelled, excluded. i don’t care, will keep on moving anyway. (who are you?)

08:15

after some amount of time, things i’ve done in the past, become the past. to conspire in the present, does not make it a present issue, and i will continue fighting this off.

07:16

they are so desperate for me to like them, so jealous i am doing better than them… and i wake up each day knowing deep down that i have been more kind to people all along, even in my worst days.

06:12

they don’t have rules here, it’s all fake. yet tonight i will have to stand and attend another “community meeting” (with earplugs in)

11:45

oh yes and now the drones reappear and start harrassing again after a long bit away tell me it’s not true

09:44

i only recently started hearing this word “fronting” and what it means. i realized unlike before that this behavior lasts well beyond grade school and is more common than i once believed. (not just in the movies is it)

07:34

this new black woman is hurting my ears WITH earplugs in. SO LOUD, bragging about having it covered. (race, age & gender) 🏘

06:58

this oompa loompa keeps changing its underwear next to me… (now on floor, on top of pillow case sheet, beside used tissues and a cup of coffee)

01:28

am not going to go through my routine in detail every night for one to understand what it is i’m doing,

20:50

did drama qwueeing just make some more false accusation? who is he and when did he do what he did? it is who hiding themselves when others are around? i wonder…

13:52

if you believe your status is going to help hold your word you are mistaken i would have to actually care and let it affect me in some way… instead i’ll just throw it back on you (where it belongs)

11:47

i’m basically laughing at everyone falling all over each other and themselves! (you are not here)

10:10

i’m asexual and single forever, much enjoying it too!! i remember when someone tried to push me toward hooking up with a woman together (ten years ago)! never, ever going to happen. the thought of anyone today, disgusts me more than ever! even you!

09:53

but i know what it’s like, in a way, i wouldn’t have done the things i did before…

07:18

thought the lights are supposed to be on by now? she even announced it’s LiNeN DaY!

05:35

too close. TOO CLOSE! a dressing room exists for a reason! y’all need to start using it! (am laying in bed)

05:31

it seems that when i stretch some folks feel inclined to do one of a number of things…

13:41

my knife(s) has only been used to exfoliate my feet, and cut fruits…

09:52

saying to me it cannot be done this way is to me a way to shut me up and i am not going to accept it. (peaceful)

08:17

you can’t keep doing that, justin! you have to be weaker!

07:13

i prefer a silver plated gun with polished jewels all around… (they better not make one before me)

17:40

i have the ability to scoff at anyone and keep on moving.

14:15

the smiles i used to make were used against me, i realized.

10:37

last evening it was also for a moment insisted that i go into the office to discuss the email, (what more is there?)

09:20

i do not need to do more. i do not owe anyone anything and i have nothing left to prove.

09:17

i don’t care if it isn’t fair. i will not live my life meeting people, doing favors to get ahead. i should already have a place by now.

08:40

(⬇️ unrelated ⬇️) how many times do i need to say NO to this woman? she kept talking for a minute or more (but i didn’t hear). go away. (anyone)

07:32

i have a right to know everything that has ever been written in my profile and i will find a way to view it. (on screen)

21:01

you can’t stop me from quietly talking to myself anywhere, here or elsewhere… (i make sense)

18:59

i was asked to start using the paper complaint form instead of email, (prefer email)

08:52

you call it coddled, i call it civilized living. (improvements made)

08:28

i can walk for miles a day, but i can no longer work. (entitled & worthy of my $$$)

00:54

i stood outside the door for a good 10 ten ¹⁰ t e n minutes or more holding the curtain open because when i woke up the room around me smelled like lysol mixed with _________________ and it was far too stuffy again.

20:56

get these dirty rats out of here ! i want good quality again ! !

08:50

people continue talking but i don’t listen. (yes and no)

03:17

you would love to twist this around, but you can’t. (dream)

03:08

maybe i got up too soon, had to sit back down for a moment? (the inconvenience)

21:54

i have no reason to make a run for it, do i? (maybe you)

21:15

get into position! *palms together above my head* i walk out of the room,

21:04

what a tight space this is, i must be so careful how i position myself when i move about… (seriously)

13:35

yesterday a full shelf of gerolsteiner, today gone.

10:44

to think i’d start stressing again every time i pick up my phone or walk inside of a store, but you aren’t going to do that to me anymore! (you don’t matter)

08:40

i am no longer going to apologize for anything, not the knife waiving on a muni train nor the windows i’ve shattered elsewhere. i’ve moved on from all of that too. it takes some amount of strength to stay so calm under the circumstances, and i am certainly in a place today to be so “judgemental” towards the rest of you.

08:33

the same is true for all of the talk about sex offences, i went through hell and back several times and after plenty of introspection (and years staying away from others, mind you) it gets quite annoying to be reminded of things i no longer think about, to say the least.

<<<🖼<<

07:53

is it not something the moment i walk out of the room this new dramatic tranny bitch follows me out of the shelter right after? i didn’t look back to check but it seemed like it. (stay away)

07:38

the animal above me is staying in bed later each morning, (maybe hoping i’d leave before) ⏳️

07:10

these folks believe they have some kind of “reign” , not in my life, you don’t.

05:51

do they know who they are messing with? have i not shown enough? my word over yours, always! (even the police find out! etc, etc, )

05:43

am sitting here thinking about all of the money i have spent over the years on everything i have (and had) and how it is only a small fraction compared to the amount i’ve spent on food. (a shame)

05:16

the last time i had a fresh warm cup of tea in bed was in beaverton… 🍵

04:53

so if my suspicions are true in the past few days i’ve been accused of stealing (she repeated it)

04:40

this particular staff either stepped outside for a moment or she went behind my bed the moment i came back in and walked around, (seemed nervous)

04:38

and my bags were partially open when i came back from using the toilet,,, (two minutes)

23:25

wait a minute so before i fell asleep earlier before lights out staff was several times shouting loudly at the new guy about pulling pants up in bed and fast forward to now i wake up and find my blanket off of me and my only pair of long black shorts pulled up a bit tightly but thankfully nothing was sticking out… ?

18:54

i am happy to say i have not worn jeans in nine 9 ⁹ n i n e years…

13:46

another pair of underwear stolen… just noticed as i put my laundry in the washing machine. (two pairs this year)

12:29

am just going to have folks sent my way until i cave is that it? (hah)

09:55

at this point, i definitely deserve much better than where i still am.

09:19

new guy in front shouting at random points throughout the night, a flashlight handled by staff being pointed on me, the animal above dropping their phone behind my head, another one slowly backing up into me while i stepped outside to eat a piece of chocolate, (another day)

07:39

i said to this person above me, you need to shower today because you stink. their response: “oh, were you talking to me? if you want we can go outside, and handle this like men!” i say, a typical response from someone like you. he continues, “don’t talk to me, you are weird, crazy!” ignored.

07:34

none of these folks use the dressing room, the one above eats in bed, few make their bed right, some play loud music. (stupid)

07:27

no more standing outside on the balcony until 7:45a, i’ve started sitting in bed again like last time. (few days now)