Category: 💬

10:22

first time i listened to a song you sent (that i can remember), it's okay... soso. maybe a remix would make it better, (for my taste)

06:28

all i can do is laugh at y’all today, that’s all you’re getting out of me! (anywhere)

12:30

i decided to skip lunch at martine’s today, ate tuna on bread in the park instead. but you will see me again in the morning, ~ 🌸

10:24

there used to be a better breed of people here, (or?) but these are the one’s that will do it in… (a shame)

10:14

am shocked this morning at martine’s to find a volunteer serving food not only eating over the tray, but also holding a napkin under their chin to catch something coming out (from after a shave, perhaps?) i have it on video, 01 & 02 •

10:11

i left the baking soda on the bed, in the corner. they could make a mess with it and say it was me but i don’t care… (my sandals are fresh once again)

05:00

baking soda? just a tiny little bit from what came off my sandal straps as i walked throughout the night, yes, and the “cleaner/maintenance” is going to come in later and sweep clean like he should.

23:43

i sweat more throughout the night than i do at any point during the day.

09:25

everything would fall apart if you all had your way. you don’t know how to keep it together. (i leave little room if any, for your kind)

00:54

you may think you are something but you are nothing here. think twice next time…

00:40

oh and the movements when i’m awake, i make my “no” gestures a bit more frequently now , ! i will remain comfortable.

07:34

actually, today is laundry day. for the first time in a month or so.

20:30

if i need a referral to go somewhere for a housing assessment, why can’t you hand it to me now instead of asking me to arrive tomorrow at three? (and the gate opens at six, so weird)

20:26

was told am due long overdue for a housing assessment, so i will squeeze that into my empty schedule tomorrow.

16:01

they haven’t had dressing rooms in six years. (they also don’t check in bags behind the counter like they used to,)

15:54

in the past, for a time, i would walk into a store and i felt fear the stress of being harrassed, accused of stealing. i broke free from that mindset, and you are not dragging me back into it. !

13:23

that was the last time i go to thrift at this location. went in searching for pants, did not find anything i wanted and left. had i not turned around and noticed you, would you have grabbed my bag? do not ever follow me.

14:33

here at the clinic, i wonder if the questions asked were filled in correctly with my answers ? it doesn’t really matter anyway… i’m just here for some topical antibiotic ointment sorting my oral antibiotic. x300! ✅️

06:44

this morning, i decided to sort my space 30 minutes before. oh i had to say it again… turn to the side!

09:02

in the event one bumps into me, it will be me expecting your apology, not the other way around, ~ (earlier)

04:07

nobody is going to help, i'm too detached and unwilling to change (or do favors) for others. i don't won't take anyone seriously enough. i will remain in my own world.

03:40

generally speaking, i will not accept the standard of living to continue in decline. at some point, i will indeed do something about it… ! (wonders)

03:18

i literally wake up almost gasping for air, i rush to slip my sandals on and head outside the dorm on the balcony for relief. this is unacceptable and they don’t care! they will not do anything about it! they only go further! (what’s going to be done about it and when?)

00:54

am i ignorant to the amount of stupid that exists? have i forgotten or, ? what’s going on here? (i am definitely ignorant in some ways)

18:57

did they really just give another “client” across from me a can of lysol, to spray on me? yes, they did. (what’s with the continued bold moves?)

07:34

well anyway on a positive note i just got done eating a (small) delicious chocolate espresso square that i bought yesterday… mmm.

07:09

each morning it feels like i just got done smoking a ton, and i have no problem walking around outside during the day, besides my back of course. (by the way, did i just hear another foul cry?)

06:11

? this right here. did something have to happen last night? what could it have been? you believe i'm sad? gee, hmm... well i honestly don't feel like explaining myself, nothing out of the usual. i'm fine enough, thanks. i show it everyday.

00:40

have a good night, talk to you in the morning. i'm going to try and go back to sleep, (in this room i am suffocating in)

00:22

i'll still be here talking to you, every now and then, until i'm sure it isn't a good idea anymore. (not much is surprising at this point)

00:10

i would certainly need some level of protection, yes? i've been given the impression i have it, to a degree, after this many years alone. and i am good with privilege, no? i carry myself with a good attitude, making improvement because i want to, not because i'm told. we all know i don't like that...

00:05

i write casually because i can, this is how i will continue to move today, with everything. in the moment, and so on. it isn't hard to ask me what i mean, is it? what happened to the communication today? i've only been improving, on my end, and not just to my advantage. i miss family, i miss at least one friend, but i have been pushing on alone for countless days now.

23:56

hopefully y'all wouldn't deceive me, i feel like a fool sharing this much with him, today. especially when i remember the past. i certainly wouldn't keep him around long, he's a remnant of a different time. the only one i still (sometimes) talk to, given how much time we once spent together. he may be some help, i let him know. but he isn't that much today...

01:06

well anyway i took the chance and told a staff passing by about a rug that someone has placed on the floor beside their bed, mentioning how dangerous it is…