_19:20

can you imagine a life in my shoes? easy peasy right? 🙄

_10:51

i can't go through the system because i've always been defiant against it and built a life away from it, with good honest intentions. (proud)

_10:17

i am not playing games with anyone here, i will end each and every one of them!

_07:36

when i’m told i am ungrateful it has me reminding myself of the opposite…

_07:29

it will be a streamlined process, simple, straightforward... without any more effort from me... or it will never get done. i have nothing left to say or do.

_07:23

i strongly believe these folks are far worse than me overall. (why is that?)

_07:19

i’ve been there, now it’s your turn! 👍

_07:06

either you face your problems, or you go crazy! (✨️🪞✨️)

_21:55

do you understand how tired i am of being told i am a mammal? (i’m beyond this now!)

_07:26

what are they worth? where is my money?

_07:15

i’m SO tired of being around dumb.

_04:20

teas for lucid dreams, i will continue. (needed)

_03:55

am i being violated in my sleep?

_19:20

they just brought the “air purifier” in after 112 days away… (fear i won’t be able to breathe tonight)

_<<<🖼<<

_09:54

if they go too far, _{^{too too far,}} i might not handle it so nicely… (in the meantime i continue to ignore)

_08:23

mmhm you always have excuses. am i supposed to know? seems it's more like telegram today, but you can't depend on me to answer that for you. at least i gave a response though. 🙄

_06:39

aren't you all glad i am not there anymore?

_12:58

the urgency is my money, and i don't want to deal with people to get there.

_11:25

pardon? i'm just saying... it becomes much easier to ignore people now, i can even laugh at them. (just making a point)

_10:49

believe it or not i still have people looking ... to set me up, i realize now and for a long time, that's all it ever was before. ..

_<<<🖼<<

_07:20

countless people over the years coming at me with countless approaches, i’ve used it to my advantage.

_06:49

since last year i’ve heard all this talk about how i have protection! pretend i don’t!!!

_06:39

nope, it's the same anywhere. that's why i've tuned into such a fine attitude.

_08:20

day 4, with earplugs in all day long (since last night)

_06:58

you need to be deported. ! (sprayed my shoulder)

_10:16

i will meet no one in the middle. (where am i today?)

_09:57

i am not listening to your voices today, they will be ignored, silenced. i will not give them any more attention.

_09:45

join the army? now why would i do that? (no.!)

_08:41

i’ve spent so much time away from the norms and what’s accepted and tolerated, i’ve almost forgotten and have to stop and think for a moment is it really this way? get the fuck out of here with your dirty needs!

_08:23

i’ve always been this way? actually for a time i considered another’s point of view, i gave my time, thought, effort. what was that?

_08:09

everything they say is going in one ear and out of the other, and i'm going to say (and do) whatever i please.

_08:04

what am i worth? maybe nothing to you, but why should that matter to me?

_07:23

i will always be alone? i’ve adapted to live alone, i wouldn’t have it any other way. you couldn’t force it with anything.

_21:38

i'm already sure of myself and accomplishments. i don't want to waste time talking to anyone.

_21:00

to no one in particular

i hurt your ego and i am not sorry

i proved you wrong and i am not sorry

i continue to follow my own way and i am not sorry

i’m good, i’m right, and i am not sorry

i will never be sorry

_19:09

anyway i've not seen any of you in 6 years and 4 months, no video call, no photo new or old. just memory.

_21:10

since i stopped working, 16.5 months outside, 30 months in shelter.

22 months i’ve received money, 18 months in san francisco = $1,962 ——- 4 months in vancouver = $1,800.

$3,762

_19:07

it’s just underwear i said to myself, until i thought about the money, and time, and harrassment at times… should have just left. i stayed and acted a bit like a fool. (feeling bad)

_17:35

well, so i found my underwear. forgot to take it out of my blue bag. but i had a reason to suspect they stole it because things have gone missing before. (never found those) one time recently i left a pair in the shower at the shelter, but was like whatever… that doesn’t explain for the rest though. (here and there) i’m down to only two…

_17:25

well, no more laundry for a few weeks at least. (when i receive some money again) deal with it!

_17:17

isn’t it something, i’ve seen people do lots of things here and they only get a week/one day suspension. but here i am letting off steam kicking the toilet flush a few times, putting my hand up in a staff face, and upon exiting exclaiming that i am tired of them stealing my clothes, proceeding to slam the door open as i walked out. (and slamming shut after) as i was walking away, another staff comes out and says to me i am suspended forever. i suppose it’s for the best.

_16:40

i said aloud, i’ll destroy this place. i can. (if i wanted to)

_16:36

as i finished folding my clothes, and started putting them away, i noticed something was missing. went through all of the trash bins, looked inside of the storage room by the shower/laundry… could not find my grey underwear. now i am down to only one pair, the red.

_15:07

can't help but find that a bit strange, another marriage. 🙄 what's the point?

_15:05

take it easy? already am, maybe even a bit too much.

_15:03

i wasn’t supposed to figure this all out, so i’ve heard.

_13:34

and if i say the wrong words?

_13:25

there was a long time i never had a wallet case either, and i never thought anything of it.

_12:58

i could remove these jewels i have placed on my phone, but i like the way they look (and the camera(s) is poor quality anyway)

_10:39

you can’t control me no matter which approach you take, and everyone is going to learn it, if they haven’t already.

_10:23

the company of another is not worth my freedom. (no love)

_09:43

call it what you wish. rejected, cancelled, excluded. i don’t care, will keep on moving anyway. (who are you?)

_08:28

after everything i’ve been through, i won’t be told i’m not forgiven.

_08:15

after some amount of time, things i’ve done in the past, become the past. to conspire in the present, does not make it a present issue, and i will continue fighting this off.

_07:33

i’m upset i never disputed this transaction. that 5.50 would come in handy today. 🪄

_07:16

they are so desperate for me to like them, so jealous i am doing better than them… and i wake up each day knowing deep down that i have been more kind to people all along, even in my worst days.

_06:45

drinking tea in bed again, because i can.

_06:12

they don’t have rules here, it’s all fake. yet tonight i will have to stand and attend another “community meeting” (with earplugs in)

_18:55

is that a glade plugin in the wall? (same hispanic) just noticed

_11:45

oh yes and now the drones reappear and start harrassing again after a long bit away tell me it’s not true

_09:44

i only recently started hearing this word “fronting” and what it means. i realized unlike before that this behavior lasts well beyond grade school and is more common than i once believed. (not just in the movies is it)

_07:34

this new black woman is hurting my ears WITH earplugs in. SO LOUD, bragging about having it covered. (race, age & gender) 🏘

_07:22

sometimes i hear a voice say to me i can’t live like this, i have to meet someone… (nope)

_07:19

if i could i’d take back every chance on every one i ever met. (looking back)

_06:58

this oompa loompa keeps changing its underwear next to me… (now on floor, on top of pillow case sheet, beside used tissues and a cup of coffee)

_05:37

keep crying, people like you will be destroyed (if i had my way) top to bottom, left to right

_05:28

respect = 🔍

_05:24

no i don’t care, and i never will. (about?)

_01:28

am not going to go through my routine in detail every night for one to understand what it is i’m doing,

_21:18

i put a new pair of earplugs in tonight!

_20:50

did drama qwueeing just make some more false accusation? who is he and when did he do what he did? it is who hiding themselves when others are around? i wonder…

_13:52

if you believe your status is going to help hold your word you are mistaken i would have to actually care and let it affect me in some way… instead i’ll just throw it back on you (where it belongs)

_11:47

i’m basically laughing at everyone falling all over each other and themselves! (you are not here)

_10:10

i’m asexual and single forever, much enjoying it too!! i remember when someone tried to push me toward hooking up with a woman together (ten years ago)! never, ever going to happen. the thought of anyone today, disgusts me more than ever! even you!

_09:53

but i know what it’s like, in a way, i wouldn’t have done the things i did before…

_09:40

how could you be so desperate, to want that?

_09:23

glass vases, porcelain ceramic mugs, real coffee… (what happened?)

_07:24

o now the lights are on,

_07:18

thought the lights are supposed to be on by now? she even announced it’s LiNeN DaY!

_05:35

too close. TOO CLOSE! a dressing room exists for a reason! y’all need to start using it! (am laying in bed)

_05:31

it seems that when i stretch some folks feel inclined to do one of a number of things…

_13:41

my knife(s) has only been used to exfoliate my feet, and cut fruits…

_09:52

saying to me it cannot be done this way is to me a way to shut me up and i am not going to accept it. (peaceful)

_08:17

you can’t keep doing that, justin! you have to be weaker!

_07:13

i prefer a silver plated gun with polished jewels all around… (they better not make one before me)

_21:39

anything they say is just words and games.

_17:40

i have the ability to scoff at anyone and keep on moving.

_14:15

the smiles i used to make were used against me, i realized.

_10:37

last evening it was also for a moment insisted that i go into the office to discuss the email, (what more is there?)

_09:20

i do not need to do more. i do not owe anyone anything and i have nothing left to prove.

_09:17

i don’t care if it isn’t fair. i will not live my life meeting people, doing favors to get ahead. i should already have a place by now.

_08:40

(⬇️ unrelated ⬇️) how many times do i need to say NO to this woman? she kept talking for a minute or more (but i didn’t hear). go away. (anyone)

🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫

_07:32

i have a right to know everything that has ever been written in my profile and i will find a way to view it. (on screen)

_21:01

you can’t stop me from quietly talking to myself anywhere, here or elsewhere… (i make sense)

_20:43

multiple personality disorder
schizophrenia
what else, ? lolol !

_18:59

i was asked to start using the paper complaint form instead of email, (prefer email)

_08:52

you call it coddled, i call it civilized living. (improvements made)

_08:28

i can walk for miles a day, but i can no longer work. (entitled & worthy of my $$$)

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