Author: justin

_00:54

am i ignorant to the amount of stupid that exists? have i forgotten or, ? what’s going on here? (i am definitely ignorant in some ways)

_18:57

did they really just give another “client” across from me a can of lysol, to spray on me? yes, they did. (what’s with the continued bold moves?)

_07:34

well anyway on a positive note i just got done eating a (small) delicious chocolate espresso square that i bought yesterday… mmm.

_07:09

each morning it feels like i just got done smoking a ton, and i have no problem walking around outside during the day, besides my back of course. (by the way, did i just hear another foul cry?)

_06:11

? this right here. did something have to happen last night? what could it have been? you believe i'm sad? gee, hmm... well i honestly don't feel like explaining myself, nothing out of the usual. i'm fine enough, thanks. i show it everyday.

_00:54

standing outside the room, on the balcony. catching my breath, holding myself up… (exhausted, tired)

_00:40

have a good night, talk to you in the morning. i'm going to try and go back to sleep, (in this room i am suffocating in)

_00:22

i'll still be here talking to you, every now and then, until i'm sure it isn't a good idea anymore. (not much is surprising at this point)

_00:10

i would certainly need some level of protection, yes? i've been given the impression i have it, to a degree, after this many years alone. and i am good with privilege, no? i carry myself with a good attitude, making improvement because i want to, not because i'm told. we all know i don't like that...

_00:05

i write casually because i can, this is how i will continue to move today, with everything. in the moment, and so on. it isn't hard to ask me what i mean, is it? what happened to the communication today? i've only been improving, on my end, and not just to my advantage. i miss family, i miss at least one friend, but i have been pushing on alone for countless days now.

_23:56

hopefully y'all wouldn't deceive me, i feel like a fool sharing this much with him, today. especially when i remember the past. i certainly wouldn't keep him around long, he's a remnant of a different time. the only one i still (sometimes) talk to, given how much time we once spent together. he may be some help, i let him know. but he isn't that much today...

_23:46

i think i've shared enough with you, actually. for some reason i feel like i can't trust you.

_18:11

do you really think i care what y’all say? i stopped caring, i’m all smiles! (inside & out)

_01:06

well anyway i took the chance and told a staff passing by about a rug that someone has placed on the floor beside their bed, mentioning how dangerous it is…

_23:51

hello, who are you people?

_23:49

i am about ready to tear these curtains off the railing! (but not really because,)

_03:44

in the end i find myself doing things alone. don't bother me with nonsense, i'm not *that stupid.

_03:26

i'll take it from here then. you are a stranger, don't make me explain things i shouldn't have to. not going another round, you know how it can be.

_13:14

thank you for making it manageable, so to speak. i appreciate the help (and rest!), when i needed it most.

_15:21

i’m learning a bit more each day i am here actually, ~ ! (not as it seems)

_07:34

if you expected me to be the caregiver in this position well,

^07:12

i know what they are doing and not doing. maybe you are just too used to the system. anyway i keep my calm, is that what you're worried about? i handle things tastefully today.

^20:19

who put some🌸 on my bed? (after the fire drill) just a few small pieces, not enough to smoke… am too tired and sore to go through everything and check underneath…

_18:56

do i have to turn on a security camera (phone) by my space tonight? alfred isn’t the same now, would have to pay some money i don’t really have. and share it with whom?

_17:29

i am nothing but a rejected transient. i've been messed with for years and i used to be so naive.

_17:27

i don't trust them, last year in vancouver i feel my medical report was minimized and the medicine they gave me never worked until i took it off and ate real food, something that becomes harder to do find.

_19:35

simply, don’t listen to them.

_11:25

and they aren’t even going to escort him out for the day, (he had a knife at me, demanding i open my bag, to get out of here)

_16:15

two four other people from the shelter sitting and laying around the polish club because…

_15:42

a fun day at franklin square,

_19:21

i'm in bad shape now and nobody wants to help me. i gave up trying a long time ago. i can't even sit today, i have to stand for relief. (nerve pain) i have barely slept in over a week. i've noticed my body shakes more, nerves are twitching vibrating... i am beyond tired.

_17:56

who are the billionaires? in what way are they so? where do you stand?

_09:01

it has been 5 years since i last saw you... i don't know what this means. i've been alone for this long i am not with other people and their routines...

_10:41

the other day somebody around mentioned syphillis and it has me viewing some example photos again this morning…