11:10
next time i go inside a dispensary for whole flower, i am going to have them show me the crystals in light. (or i am not buying!)
Category: 💬
09:57
do not talk to me about fighting for anything. maybe i was dumb but i never thought of it that way before, and after everything i’ve been through. whenever i think about someone coming at me in some kind of way, i simply imagine ending you. and i don’t like it, !
09:51
if i had land that i could control, i would make it beautiful just like this, and not just for myself to enjoy.
08:14
to think that ever worked in the first place. time wasted, it was. !
14:45
did i jump ahead? what does that mean? i came out here naive (and i am still stubborn)
10:42
and they carry on with their nonsense, the nonsense they force me to be familiar with,
10:33
i know what i am doing, and i have to ignore you to carry on,
09:55
i need a pound of cannabis. anyone willing to help out?
08:31
how could i be the destroyer of worlds?
13:17
if minding my own causes this much damage then i will carry on…
17:34
second home, san fran, like it or not (me & you)
16:14
oh let’s see i have worked 4 out of the 10 years i have been out here…
12:48
this gives me all the more reason to enjoy my day, on my own, away from everyone, doing as i please… 🌸
12:39
https://nitsuji.net/from-recent/ and these are recent days, handled a bit differently.
12:26
i feel the need to tell you that the one you clicked like on, in the first and fifth photo... were not the best days. even the last photo.
11:45
🖼🖼🖼🖼 ...so distant.
11:26
a smoke in the park sounds better… (which i am now doing anyway)
09:31
🎧! 🇲🇽 ! did i just give myself a reason to avoid el cappo for awhile? and i told myself not to go today,
08:15
do not ever talk to me about what it means to live abundantly… !
17:26
i don’t go any way. i go the way of my house, and hot tub, and kitchen, (and nobody is going to change it!)
11:40
watch me smoke again this weekend, but actually, mind your own.
09:23
42 days since i tried to go in for my appointment but was told i had too much on me and was turned away, (the shelter made me get rid of my luggage the first night i arrived)
07:05
ship these folks back to mexico! (what do i mean?)
02:02
does the time in which this post was made make an imagination run wild?
07:15
and when i move around in the world country i will absolutely bring this attitude with me, as i have already shown… 🖕
13:53
i will take ignoring everyone to the next level… i gave enough consideration.
12:44
moved my hands around on my walk. had a nap in the park all morning. put the earplugs in, enjoyed it. haven’t felt this way in some time. nothing you can do about it… if you don’t like it you can go back to where you came from.
10:10
🌸 …the beach, the bridge, the hill, …the south… 🌸
01:29
so far i’ve lost two hours of sleep tonight and a cough is coming on. sore throat. am feeling a bit itchy as well, ?
23:45
it dawned on me that maybe the person in front of me, the same one messing with the air purifier (which has now been out of the room for several nights) is spraying this aerosol bottle of whatever and blaming me for it. tonight i spoke up and said something to him the moment he started spraying others’ spaces. it was so bad i had to go out on the balcony for another cup of coffee. then i went to sleep.
23:41
got up to use the toilet. is the heater on a different setting tonight? anyway, i opened the curtain when i returned. need some oxygen flowing in the room, a comfortable temperature,
20:08
it’s almost march and i have literally done nothing this year.
18:53
do we have some actors around trying to get me in the mood? (here, el cappo,) take that how you will, it can go more than one way…
16:05
but i’m not, will make one myself instead (whenever that is)
09:50
10:08
build a life on setting people up? no, thanks. 🚫
09:16
less than one month short of five years (1,802 days) i have been on my own, under two months away until four years (1,413 days) since i last met with anyone for anything. i am not the same person today…
09:06
tell me, why is this so difficult now? what do i need to change today? what is it i need to do to move forward? no one can answer because i am right and they are wrong. i am honest and they are not.
08:41
reminding myself that i stopped coming here completely to el cappo from 2017 march/april until 2023 december…
19:03
the one night i won’t complain about the heater being on all night (bags need to dry)
16:43
“no line up til 5:30pm!” everyone else moved away from the camera, and i will stay in the same spot i have just arrived to until the gate opens.
09:02
i’ve brought the air quality issue up enough times by now for there to be no more issues…
21:15
was told i “might” receive a warning for intimidating a staff, i had said aloud i was going to report her behavior.
23:20
woke up suffocating and sure enough some idiot set the purifier to high again, just as i figured while catching my breath before getting up to fill with some water, (i changed it back to auto) my lungs still hurt ten minutes later
10:43
and do i have another smoke for the weekend, maybe not
08:12
put the bottle between my legs this morning to make a point…
03:48
second night i have awoken to find myself in a strange position, with my back twisted and eye cover shirt around my neck. also suffocating a bit, purifier is off auto again… (adjusted, myself, to auto, again, better airflow, again, yay!!!)
21:51
hey i’m not mister know-it-all, just…
21:39
explaining that keeping the fan on high all night makes the room more stuffy, use your noggin . !