Month: April 2026

23:27

i am using my chapstick a whole bunch tonight, what’s going to be done about that, hmm? (can’t sleep, maybe later)

21:55

if y’all are trying to hurt my feelings, you are failing! (stronger than ever, had to adapt)

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they went to the extent of removing the mattress and replacing it with another… (now it leans up against the wall/windows outside the dorm)

17:46

the shelter staff, even the police. something seems off. i better not find a random phone around me later tonight!

17:42

i’m not swayed in the slightest. i healed, i pushed myself through the traumas. get fucking real, i am! i don’t bother anyone!!!

17:37

i’ve had someone pull a knife out on me before and after i ever did, was this another setup? i felt ignored the whole time as i explained the situation that just happened. trespassing?

17:28

i arrive in line, the same as every evening. a guy on a scooter passes by. in the opposite direction, a guy and gal approach him, stopping him, “do you have a phone?” then a huge knife comes out… am i going to stay around? no! i start walking into the street to cross the other side and he turns his attention to me. he starts chasing me for a moment, i make my way into the shelter through the parking lot via an open door next to the church. some other maintenance guy is working out front. i took the chance!

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if i had recorded a video from the parking lot, (but i’m not going to stress about it anymore)

08:58

english comes before spanish. this is north america. not central america, not south america. north america.

07:50

this city has screwed me over since the beginning. when i first started working, the day i received my very first paycheck. (muni & safeway)

07:28

this old creep is walking around shaving his face, leaving a trail of small hairs all over the fucking place! (he smirks about it)

02:45

if i had a gun, i’d have engraved a “no” on the left side. (and that’s not all)

17:23

do not ever expect me to let you hold me against my will, because you will be putting yourself in danger, ! (anyone)

11:49

i’m not going to attack anyone unless i really need to. the other day it came close, but i was patient enough. if anyone ever thinks of trying this again, i will do what i need to. (without any added stress)

10:57

🌞🌴🧺you don’t get to come here in this second home of mine and change the rules, that’s my job! because i am one of the most reasonable people around ~ (from other places)

19:06

you might want to be careful before you cry foul again. (in all directions tonight)

05:58

just an fyi to everyone in town: i never asked for your approval to be here, and quite frankly i don’t need it. i say this especially to all of the new faces that think they can come at me with the lines of “you really need to get out of here” “we don’t want you” , suck it up buttercup!!! i’m here until i receive my money. !

05:52

lift up your blanket please. lift up your blanket please! alright, well if it keeps happening i am going to knock until you do. i will pound if i have to.

16:14

when ~nonchalant~ becomes a problem, in what state are we in? (and i mean it widely, we are all people at the end of the day) when does ~nonchalant~ become a problem?

14:44

when i go back again later this week, no more issues? i don’t want any…

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new bag (they gave me two but i didn’t want the other one)

14:28

he told me after checkout… someone else cried foul. it’s possible… i had to rethink things for an hour. upset at myself for moving my mouth more than needed, and the hand gesture too. i don’t know him, his side, or what he’s been through. however, i’m pretty sure he’s been there before, and if i use the restroom it is always before i grab a cart. usual routine, but not often i use there. not going to feel uncomfortable anymore, as you can see!

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was i unreasonable for not opening my bag when asked? i frequent this location and no employee intervened while this security guard was ripping my bag away from my shoulder/hands. scolded an employee for attempting to block my exit after i made my way outside. security tried to block my way back inside after i grabbed a cart, manager had him step aside to let me shop. i said “niggers” out loud, but i feel bad about it. a bad way of venting in the moment. oh well, moving on. my belongings were falling out, thankfully nothing was lost or broken, apart from my bag. had them give me a new bag free of charge,

he apologized after checkout, and i did too for being offensive. told him to have a good day, (meant it)

10:26

when someone comes back at me with the fact this is a soup kitchen, i just want to strangle you!

07:13

i am allowed to talk to myself. i will talk to myself as much as i feel like it! (not bothered)

08:34

tell me what you know about an arrest warrant? but you won’t, (and i don’t care, nothing will be done about it Anyway)

07:30

waiting for me turn at the serving table. am wondering what a white flashing light means on the cctv camera? it’s usually a steady blue, (it went back to blue after a moment)

06:50

keep trying, continue failing, and laugh all you want. i will have the last laugh, you can be sure of that!

05:11

is it a coincidence that this morning i have a staff stand outside by the door giving me looks and they deliberately turn and start walking into me the moment i make my way inside? (they were less than a foot away from me and i had to swerve to avoid hitting them)

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09:42

make use of the shower option folks. after you have one, you ask yourself why you took so long,

09:31

sorry, is it because you feel threatened i choose to take care of myself in alternative ways? but i can’t do my own blood work, or check ups, or transport myself to the hospital in an emergency, can i? i don’t know everything, and there are things you may suggest that i am open to hear… hmm,

05:02

i will not take it the way they want me to, it goes right back to them.

04:24

it is a great feeling, i no longer feel the need to explain myself.

07:08

no, it is no different. you are either real, or you are not. (yes, some people have no choice, …)

07:35

that’s not going to woorrrrkkk. but keep trying! try away ! ~ ~ ~ : – )

13:08

the life of meeting people, it’s one i have forgotten. far away, foreign, forever. (i’m satisfied)