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_10:16

i will meet no one in the middle.

_09:57

i am not listening to your voices today, they will be ignored, silenced. i will not give them any more attention.

_09:45

join the army? now why would i do that? (no.!)

_08:41

i’ve spent so much time away from the norms and what’s accepted and tolerated, i’ve almost forgotten and have to stop and think for a moment is it really this way? get the fuck out of here with your dirty needs!

_08:23

i’ve always been this way? actually for a time i considered another’s point of view, i gave my time, thought, effort. what was that?

_08:09

everything they say is going in one ear and out of the other, and i'm going to say (and do) whatever i please.

_08:04

what am i worth? maybe nothing to you, but why should that matter to me?

_07:23

i will always be alone? i’ve adapted to live alone, i wouldn’t have it any other way. you couldn’t force it with anything.

_21:38

i'm already sure of myself and accomplishments. i don't want to waste time talking to anyone.

_21:00

to no one in particular

i hurt your ego and i am not sorry

i proved you wrong and i am not sorry

i continue to follow my own way and i am not sorry

i’m good, i’m right, and i am not sorry

i will never be sorry

_19:09

anyway i've not seen any of you in 6 years and 4 months, no video call, no photo new or old. just memory.

_21:10

since i stopped working, 16.5 months outside, 30 months in shelter.

22 months i’ve received money, 18 months in san francisco = $1,962 ——- 4 months in vancouver = $1,800.

$3,762

_19:07

it’s just underwear i said to myself, until i thought about the money, and time, and harrassment at times… should have just left. i stayed and acted a bit like a fool. (feeling bad)

_17:35

well, so i found my underwear. forgot to take it out of my blue bag. but i had a reason to suspect they stole it because things have gone missing before. (never found those) one time recently i left a pair in the shower at the shelter, but was like whatever… that doesn’t explain for the rest though. (here and there) i’m down to only two…

_17:25

well, no more laundry for a few weeks at least. (when i receive some money again) deal with it!

_17:17

isn’t it something, i’ve seen people do lots of things here and they only get a week/one day suspension. but here i am letting off steam kicking the toilet flush a few times, putting my hand up in a staff face, and upon exiting exclaiming that i am tired of them stealing my clothes, proceeding to slam the door open as i walked out. (and slamming shut after) as i was walking away, another staff comes out and says to me i am suspended forever. i suppose it’s for the best.

_16:40

i said aloud, i’ll destroy this place. i can. (if i wanted to)

_16:36

as i finished folding my clothes, and started putting them away, i noticed something was missing. went through all of the trash bins, looked inside of the storage room by the shower/laundry… could not find my grey underwear. now i am down to only one pair, the red.

_15:07

can't help but find that a bit strange, another marriage. 🙄 what's the point?

_15:05

take it easy? already am, maybe even a bit too much.

_15:03

i wasn’t supposed to figure this all out, so i’ve heard.

_13:34

and if i say the wrong words?

_13:25

there was a long time i never had a wallet case either, and i never thought anything of it.

_12:58

i could remove these jewels i have placed on my phone, but i like the way they look (and the camera(s) is poor quality anyway)

_10:39

you can’t control me no matter which approach you take, and everyone is going to learn it, if they haven’t already.

_10:23

the company of another is not worth my freedom. (no love)

_09:43

call it what you wish. rejected, cancelled, excluded. i don’t care, will keep on moving anyway. (who are you?)

_08:28

after everything i’ve been through, i won’t be told i’m not forgiven.

_08:15

after some amount of time, things i’ve done in the past, become the past. to conspire in the present, does not make it a present issue, and i will continue fighting this off.

_07:33

i’m upset i never disputed this transaction. that 5.50 would come in handy today. 🪄

_07:16

they are so desperate for me to like them, so jealous i am doing better than them… and i wake up each day knowing deep down that i have been more kind to people all along, even in my worst days.

_06:45

drinking tea in bed again, because i can.

_06:12

they don’t have rules here, it’s all fake. yet tonight i will have to stand and attend another “community meeting” (with earplugs in)

_18:55

is that a glade plugin in the wall? (same hispanic) just noticed

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am owed over 25,000 dollars now… but i continue roaming around town every day and arrive to unwind at a place i don’t deserve to be (i deserve better)

_11:45

oh yes and now the drones reappear and start harrassing again after a long bit away tell me it’s not true

_09:44

i only recently started hearing this word “fronting” and what it means. i realized unlike before that this behavior lasts well beyond grade school and is more common than i once believed. (not just in the movies is it)

_07:34

this new black woman is hurting my ears WITH earplugs in. SO LOUD, bragging about having it covered. (race, age & gender) 🏘

_07:22

sometimes i hear a voice say to me i can’t live like this, i have to meet someone… (nope)

_07:19

if i could i’d take back every chance on every one i ever met. (looking back)

_06:58

this oompa loompa keeps changing its underwear next to me… (now on floor, on top of pillow case sheet, beside used tissues and a cup of coffee)

_05:37

keep crying, people like you will be destroyed (if i had my way) top to bottom, left to right

_05:28

respect = 🔍

_05:24

no i don’t care, and i never will. (about?)

_01:28

am not going to go through my routine in detail every night for one to understand what it is i’m doing,

_21:18

i put a new pair of earplugs in tonight!

_20:50

did drama qwueeing just make some more false accusation? who is he and when did he do what he did? it is who hiding themselves when others are around? i wonder…

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_13:52

if you believe your status is going to help hold your word you are mistaken i would have to actually care and let it affect me in some way… instead i’ll just throw it back on you (where it belongs)

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night

_11:47

i’m basically laughing at everyone falling all over each other and themselves! (you are not here)

_10:10

i’m asexual and single forever, much enjoying it too!! i remember when someone tried to push me toward hooking up with a woman together (ten years ago)! never, ever going to happen. the thought of anyone today, disgusts me more than ever! even you!

_09:53

but i know what it’s like, in a way, i wouldn’t have done the things i did before…

_09:40

how could you be so desperate, to want that?

_09:23

glass vases, porcelain ceramic mugs, real coffee… (what happened?)

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_07:24

o now the lights are on,

_07:18

thought the lights are supposed to be on by now? she even announced it’s LiNeN DaY!

_05:35

too close. TOO CLOSE! a dressing room exists for a reason! y’all need to start using it! (am laying in bed)

_05:31

it seems that when i stretch some folks feel inclined to do one of a number of things…

_13:41

my knife(s) has only been used to exfoliate my feet, and cut fruits…

_09:52

saying to me it cannot be done this way is to me a way to shut me up and i am not going to accept it. (peaceful)

_08:17

you can’t keep doing that, justin! you have to be weaker!

_07:13

i prefer a silver plated gun with polished jewels all around… (they better not make one before me)

_21:39

anything they say is just words and games.

_17:40

i have the ability to scoff at anyone and keep on moving.

_14:15

the smiles i used to make were used against me, i realized.

_10:37

last evening it was also for a moment insisted that i go into the office to discuss the email, (what more is there?)

_09:20

i do not need to do more. i do not owe anyone anything and i have nothing left to prove.

_09:17

i don’t care if it isn’t fair. i will not live my life meeting people, doing favors to get ahead. i should already have a place by now.

_08:40

(⬇️ unrelated ⬇️) how many times do i need to say NO to this woman? she kept talking for a minute or more (but i didn’t hear). go away. (anyone)

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_07:32

i have a right to know everything that has ever been written in my profile and i will find a way to view it. (on screen)

_21:01

you can’t stop me from quietly talking to myself anywhere, here or elsewhere… (i make sense)

_20:43

multiple personality disorder
schizophrenia
what else, ? lolol !

_18:59

i was asked to start using the paper complaint form instead of email, (prefer email)

_08:52

you call it coddled, i call it civilized living. (improvements made)

_08:28

i can walk for miles a day, but i can no longer work. (entitled & worthy of my $$$)

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_00:54

i stood outside the door for a good 10 ten ¹⁰ t e n minutes or more holding the curtain open because when i woke up the room around me smelled like lysol mixed with _________________ and it was far too stuffy again.

_20:56

get these dirty rats out of here ! i want good quality again ! !

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_09:55

pathetic people, pathetic attempts.

_08:50

people continue talking but i don’t listen. (yes and no)

_17:30

i spent 26 27 months alone outside, total.

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_03:17

you would love to twist this around, but you can’t. (dream)

_03:08

maybe i got up too soon, had to sit back down for a moment? (the inconvenience)

_21:54

i have no reason to make a run for it, do i? (maybe you)

_21:15

get into position! *palms together above my head* i walk out of the room,

_21:04

what a tight space this is, i must be so careful how i position myself when i move about… (seriously)

_13:35

yesterday a full shelf of gerolsteiner, today gone.

_10:44

to think i’d start stressing again every time i pick up my phone or walk inside of a store, but you aren’t going to do that to me anymore! (you don’t matter)

_08:40

i am no longer going to apologize for anything, not the knife waiving on a muni train nor the windows i’ve shattered elsewhere. i’ve moved on from all of that too. it takes some amount of strength to stay so calm under the circumstances, and i am certainly in a place today to be so “judgemental” towards the rest of you.

_08:33

the same is true for all of the talk about sex offences, i went through hell and back several times and after plenty of introspection (and years staying away from others, mind you) it gets quite annoying to be reminded of things i no longer think about, to say the least.

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_07:53

is it not something the moment i walk out of the room this new dramatic tranny bitch follows me out of the shelter right after? i didn’t look back to check but it seemed like it. (stay away)

_07:38

the animal above me is staying in bed later each morning, (maybe hoping i’d leave before) ⏳️

_07:10

these folks believe they have some kind of “reign” , not in my life, you don’t.

what is the point of applying online? this is what they did last time too… (the one appointment they allowed me inside with my one backpack and one tote bag, kept inside a “security bin” by the entrance. not the actual appointment though, the one i attend to actually continue the process… (frustrated)

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_05:51

do they know who they are messing with? have i not shown enough? my word over yours, always! (even the police find out! etc, etc, )